So the Squid says to me yesterday "Hey, mamma. Remember that time we went to the grocery store, just you and me?" When I tell you that the grocery store is next door, I mean next door, as in the bricks of my building touch the bricks of the grocery store. And that exciting trip to the store was probably 3 months ago, and it was to run and get milk. I felt immediate pangs of guilt that my Squid sees so little of me without the Mole attached.
I do try. We spend every afternoon together at the park, with friends, at the coffee shop, hanging out. The Mole lives in various baby carriers, just hanging in there while I try to shower attention on the Squid. But you know, after 4 years of spending so much time with her - I miss her. And she misses me, too. Ok. I get it.
So we strapped the Mole to papa for a walk to the computer store while the Squid and I went to the park. Where we had a fabulous time, swinging together, sitting on a bench and talking with no one squeaking, squawking, or latched onto various body parts. On our way home we stopped into the yarn store to pick up buttons for the Squid's cardi, nearly finished.
Yeah, this is what she chose for her beautiful, earthy, yet still purple and pink sweater. My Squid is an enigma.
And as I was paying, I felt this little curly head leaning on my thigh. I looked down and she was hugging a wildly expensive single skein of hand-dyed pink yarn. "I love this yarn," she said. "It's the best yarn ever. Can we buy it?" Wildly expensive. Single skein. No more left in the store. She rubbed her tender, little girl cheek on the yarn, and hugged me harder. "You could make me a biki. A little one." I told her it would have to be really tiny wee and she said "I don't care. I just want it to be this yarn." And then she got me. "I just want something you
made for me that is pink and sparkly and soft from this yarn."
Sigh. I am such a sucker. So we walked out with a wildly expensive single skein of this pink and sparkly and soft yarn. "I'm Allergic to Wool" by Farmhouse Yarns. 85% Cotton. 15% Rayon. 150 Yards. Suggested needle, 11 US, 2 stitches to the inch.What
am I going to make with this? Cannot be a toy. Or scarf, hat, mittens, vest, pillow, or legwarmers. It cannot be mixed with another yarn. Which leaves??
Sigh. When we got home, and returned to our lives again, me nursing the baby, her playing at my feet, she looked at me and said "Mamma? I love you all the way up to Canada and all the way down to Brooklyn."